You are my..one and only

POS in my place! >.<

the only reason why you dont like us is because we dont agree with things you say. you are not reasonable. you are too spoiled. honestly, in life, not everyone is going to agree with you. if you make a fuss at the place you work at, do you think the boss is not going to fire you? fuck no! they are going to fire you. we bring our friends here, you have a problem with that, this is not your house, we pay rent too. if we want to bring our friends, then we do so. it has nothing to do with you, why do you care. the kitchen was always clean, and you just posted a note on the fridge. what the fuck! since the beginning, you always started shit with us. when we have parties, you dont let us. what the fuck!! are you serious?!?! whether or not we have parties is also none of your business. why do you care? im sorry that youre jealous that you dont have any friends. hmmm…i wonder why? cuz youre sucha fucken bitch???? god damn! what the damn fuck is wrong with you??? is it karma that i have to meet someone so ridiculous? UGHHHHH!! I HATE YOU! yes i know the word hate is a strong word but yes i hate you from the bottom of my heart. you always tell us where to part too. honestly, i can park wherever the fuck i want. i rented a room and im guaranteed a parking spot. i did not rent a room for you two to boss me around alright? get shit straight before you come to america. good thing there is only a week left, if i continue living with you, i will seriously shoot myself a bajillion times. and like honestly, why the crap should me and karen pay for utilities on days we didnt live there and pay for what you guys used. obviously, you care about that stupid money, dont give me bullshit in saying that you dont give a fuck cuz yes you do. BITCH!!! what did i ever do to you faggot shithoe. honestly, your room smells like shit the time i helped you put your clothes back in youre room. if you dont get rid of the smell, youre not getting shit deposit back. honestly, you guys deserve nothing. let me see how you feel when i dont move my car. just watch…when that text comes..im gonna be like im so sorry for you guys.. bitch

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sigh…i cant believe this..i just lost my best friend. seriously patrick? is it because of someone?? i dont understand why you wont tell me anything and what you feel. i thought we were best friends. i didnt know that one guy can cause our friendship to become this way. but yea, using “im busy talking to my friends” is not cool. if i really meant something to you then you would tell me whats going on in your heart. i dont know what is going on…

when a boy tells me im perfect the way i am…

shannonsecrets:

                                

it makes me go apeshit, and want to excersise even more. because i know he means the opposite . X_________X”

lol no it doesnt…they mean what they say..thats why they love the way you are! :] they fall for you the way you are or they wouldnt fall for you in the first place xP

fck

screw this…im so tired of everything. GOD DAMN!! wtf do you want? -___-

soo…

the same thing happened again..i knew it, but its ok..i will keep trying!!

as…

 i was walking down the stairs from the 8th floor of my friends apartment, i looked at the scenery it presented me with..it was really nice. there were crazy lights. i felt like i was looking at la city lights from above..so romantic. then i suddenly thought about you. although i know that i am over with you, i do still think about you at times and i still do miss you. then as i walked down to the first floor and walked pass a bridge over the freeway, i heard swooshing sounds made by the cars that were driving on the freeway. the swooshing sounds made me think about how everything passed so fast. everything happened in a time span of 2 ish months. we havent talked for almost a month now. i can live without your txts and your calls and everything. as i slowly walked passed those two scenes that approached me, i knew i cannot bare living to know that we arent even friends anymore. as desperate as this sounds, no matter how much you ignore me and how much you dont want to talk to me, i will not stop trying to be friends again.

so..

i guess everything has finally stopped at its place.

from beginning of college til now, everything finally ended. sighh, it was a pretty tiring year ;\

well i got to say, i lost two of the people that really can say that i loved, but like i said, people come and go and if they dont want to stay then thats too bad.

i really want to say their names here..but, sighh that means im specifically ending friendships and i dont wanna do that :[ i still want them as friends. but i guess now, the three of us will part ways until one day we will be fated enough to come together again. fated for me to love you guys and fated for you guys to love me back as much as i love you guys. for now, all i can say is, later lovers. ill miss you guys. ill miss all the times we had so much fun and the time we had a energy drink run and all the times we txted and talked on the phone.

since at this point were not fated for each others anymore, we shall move on to explore this huge world coming towards us :]

always smile, never frown…live everyday like you guys never did before, and i will too :]

no matter what you two guys did to me, whether i got played by you or that i never trusted you or whatever you did to me that make me want us to part ways, you two guys will always have a spot in my heart. from here on, all is forgiven and i hope you two forgive me too for whatever i did that made you guys leave me.

the next time we all come together again, i hope it’ll be a new start.

i love you two! <3

a list of what i expect in guys…

so if you cant live up to it, back the shit off:

1. show me you care about me

2. txt me all the time

3. if you say it, you do it

4. dont cheat on me, thats stupid

5. dont lie to me

6. be there for me

thats it for now…

these are way too easy to do….if you cant do it, then i guess we can just be friends :]

Thanks

For always putting up for my bitchyness (: and always being here for me…

I never wanted to use you as anything because you were my friend and I didn’t want to hurt you so I didn’t use you….

I am completely over him now so its ok for me to move on to another guy (: and yes I agree haha you are probably the only person who can put up with all the shit I do, thanks (:

I already lost someone really important to me, so now I don’t want to lose you too xP you’re like my best friend…txting me from day to night

Although we always give each other conversation stoppers, the conversation still goes on for countless hours with conversation stoppers hahah xP pretty funn..its ok that we always fight cuz in the end, we just stop getting mad at each other and I love how it always ends up like that, we don’t have to solve our fights….I hope it’ll always be like that, that way, I don’t have to worry about solving anything and I can have fun!! (:

Thanks for always being here for me when I was sadd!!! It helped

I…

Can finally say that its over, I really loved you but you chose to leave me, I can’t do anything but say goodbye. I’m super sad that I lost a really really good friend like you but I mean, there’s a lot of people out there who can be my really really good friend if you don’t want to be. I mean I’m heartbroken and all but I can move on so no worries. You don’t have to be sorry cuz its life..people come and go…

Goodbye best friend

heyy…

i was just wondering how you are…im good i guess

iono, but yea, its so lonely in riverside :[ yeaa i miss you and i cant talk to you cuz i know you dont want to talk to me…always giving me conversation stoppers.

id rather be hurt not talking to you than to talk to you and get conversation stoppers..sighh

what happened to us?? i thought we were still good friends like we use to be when i was a junior..what happened??!! :[ i miss all the times we use to mess around and have long talks and everything!!!!! just everything.

how did everything turn out like this? i didnt want it to be like this…..

why?? :[

i…

cant write my essayyy…goshh, theres wayy too much going on in my mind. i dont know wtf im writing on word :\

sighh…i just hope everything would go back to before, how we would never have fights and i would be super considerate about everything. i wish i could just erase everything unhappy that happened in the middle, that way, i wouldnt turn out like this…

fck

grandpa is the shitt!! :] hes sooo dayammmmm righttt hehehhe xd

anyways, so heres the story of why i call him grandpa

one day..i just called him that because i think he has really good relationship advice for me and i think all of them are pretty true. not just that, although he is like a little over a year older than me, he is a crazily deep thinker. hes been through a lot of stuff and everything that comes outta his mouth just seems so logical that i cant help to listen to what he has to say. and thats how he because my grandpa. hes like the only person i really listen to when it comes to relationships and stuff because i know what he says will work. 

today, may 17, 2010

me and karen and grandpa were eating dinner and we came to talk about relationships again (the usual) i was telling him about my love life and stuff and yepp. then we came to talk about breaking up and stuff like that.

he said that when people break up, dont turn back even if you regret it. he told me that..and i was so speechless because obviously, if a person regrets he would try to turn back and save what he or she has lost..blah blah blah the obvious. but no, grandpa here telling me to suck it up even if theres regret. well i didnt get it of course. so he explained that..theres always a reason why couples break up, so seriously we dont need to go back and experience the same things again. and plus..there are always better in the future. theres a saying a good horse doesnt turn back for the good grass when it has passed it. this saying is so true. i mean, yea i walked past someone really good and perfect and everything..but i already walked past it. if its meant to be, then the good grass will be here no matter how many times i pass it and if not…there will be better grass if i keep walking down the road. theres always someone better.

<3 2010

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i done